Give it up
15 years ago
Sunday, 30 November 2008
Tickles
Being attacked and tickled by a 6 year old is quite funny, especially when she goes 'yikes!!' when she gets tickled back. Happy days. I'll probably write something slightly more thoughtful in a less hostile situation ;)
Saturday, 29 November 2008
Change
The amount of times i've actually sat down; decided that I need to write a blog; created a blog; written an entry; written another entry; never written in that blog again and finally, forgotten that it ever existed.
Seemingly this is a pattern that emerges every couple of years, particularly when something I feel is significant in my life takes hold of the situation and I consider that the only way I'll be able to even attempt to comprehend the situation would be to write it down on the internet for anybody to see. Right then.
So what is the current life changing situation? I suppose the fact that my fiancee that i've been together with, on and off since we were both circa 16 and I have ended our relationship, maybe that counts? worse so, it was my decision. Well, to an extent it was my decision - it was a decision that I had to make otherwise the situation could have developed into something a lot worse. I dont particularly want to go into details, partly because I dont want to talk about it too much as it'll just depress me as i'm clearly still slightly fragile, and secondly, because its difficult to explain.
Anyway, onto tonight - I did a journey that took me 45mins after a shift a club last night in 1hour20mins making me vaguely late for work, although nobody particularly noticed and it was such a boring uneventful night that I was glad to be home. Unfortunately i'm now writing this mundane entry from my bedroom back at my parents house as I am moving back here since the house with the fiancee is no longer a possibility.
Ultimately, change is a good thing - sometimes, its extremely hard to consider because it'll mean making decision that you feel you'll regret, or even know you'll regret; but sometimes you just have to look at the bigger picture. In this case? Happyness vs Security. I'm glad happyness won.
Seemingly this is a pattern that emerges every couple of years, particularly when something I feel is significant in my life takes hold of the situation and I consider that the only way I'll be able to even attempt to comprehend the situation would be to write it down on the internet for anybody to see. Right then.
So what is the current life changing situation? I suppose the fact that my fiancee that i've been together with, on and off since we were both circa 16 and I have ended our relationship, maybe that counts? worse so, it was my decision. Well, to an extent it was my decision - it was a decision that I had to make otherwise the situation could have developed into something a lot worse. I dont particularly want to go into details, partly because I dont want to talk about it too much as it'll just depress me as i'm clearly still slightly fragile, and secondly, because its difficult to explain.
Anyway, onto tonight - I did a journey that took me 45mins after a shift a club last night in 1hour20mins making me vaguely late for work, although nobody particularly noticed and it was such a boring uneventful night that I was glad to be home. Unfortunately i'm now writing this mundane entry from my bedroom back at my parents house as I am moving back here since the house with the fiancee is no longer a possibility.
Ultimately, change is a good thing - sometimes, its extremely hard to consider because it'll mean making decision that you feel you'll regret, or even know you'll regret; but sometimes you just have to look at the bigger picture. In this case? Happyness vs Security. I'm glad happyness won.
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